Saturday, January 10, 2009
Testing, testing, hello, is this working?
Hello? Hello? Umm, this feels like a test. Since I gave my resolution to the public, written down, and in bold print even, I have been feeling this push to commit. I now understand why the dietary people who create diets for individuals make you write down a journal of everything you eat, or when planning a budget you have to write down everything you spend. What does it do when you write it down? It makes you accountable! Yikes, ACCOUNTABLE, meaning just because I wrote my new years resolution word of the year, COMMITMENT, means now I feel accountable for all of those silly little goals. (Funny thing my husband thought at first glance that I wanted to be committed, like in a crazy place.) HA HA very funny my dear sweet husband! ERRRR Anyways, this whole commitment thing, I feel like I have been trying. I have had a few discussions with God, so that means I must be praying and taking things to Him more often, right? And when a couple of friends this past week asked us over to a football game dinner, I said yes, and we went. (Even though my almost 2 year old tried to spoil the fun, we quickly adjusted the plan! BUT WE DID IT! Yeah, (You know, the whole committing to strengthening friendships commitment.) I committed to another Bible study, that sometimes just goes way over my head, but by the end God shows me it was perfect. However, I do feel like this must be a test. Do you ever wonder if God just puts things in our path to see if we REALLY mean what we say? I have felt like that today. I was picking up dinner (yes the heathy eating commitment hasn't really taken flight yet) when I turned off the radio and had a conversation, out loud, trying to sort through a new offer to commit myself to a big project. (Does anyone else do this or do I really need to take up my husbands advice?) It dawned on me that my first commitment this years was to God. WOW, and now he has given me the opportunity to maybe take that commitment to him to help others. I don't want to really say what kind of commitment this maybe be in the form of because there are actually a couple that God has place on our hands. Hope all my other blog friends are really working towards their resolutions for the year. Let me know, I would love to hear about them.